The Sharpest Tool

Been a few weeks since my last posting, and things were off to a great start... and then I got sick! First a cold that hit me hard so I couldn't breathe and then the worst stomach bug in the history of the world. I lost four pounds that week! That was awesome, but of course I wasn't eating so... there's that.

Now that things are mostly back to normal, I'm trying my best to fit everything in. I'm treating my workouts like a job. I have to show up every day, or I don't get paid... I don't know for sure what I'm getting paid IN per se, but I think it's a good plan. The gym finally opened and I really like it. I ride the stationary bike for 30 minutes, and then do weight lifting on a few machines alternating arms and legs. Some of the machines are hard to get in to... they seem like old fashioned torture devices, but once you get in, they work great! I also got some brand new tennis shoes from my mom for Christmas. I went to the New Balance store and they measured my feet and they feel great on. Also, my awful cold sent me into to trying something new, so I bought a neti pot. I really love it and I've felt so much better since I started using it! I also pledged 50 pounds to the Pound For Pound Challenge (http://www.pfpchallenge.com/) so they can help feed people in ABQ at the Roadrunner Food Bank. I hope to put a team together and maybe we can go volunteer there some afternoon.

I wanted to touch a little on all the advice I've been given. It's funny. Most of the things that were suggested in my last blog, I've done, or known about, or signed up for. I've STARTED using my sparkpeople.com account more times than I can remember. There have been a lot of times in my life where i get so wrapped up in documenting the process, I stop doing the process. I've had all these tools at my finger tips. I've read more articles on weight loss than I can count. I've seen plenty of doctors about the nodule on my thyroid only to have them say, "there's nothing we can do." Each time, after every little defeat, feeling like there was nothing I could do. I once did the regular Power 90 workout. I lost about 10 pounds over the course of the program. I was feeling good. Of course once the 90 days were over, everything went back to where it had started. And then some. Auditioning for The Biggest Loser was another huge disappointment. I'm probably one of the most educated fat person about weight loss. I know that I need to burn more calories than I intake in a day and that eating several small meals in a day will boost my metabolism. Drinking water will help me feel more full and flush my body of toxins. My brain is filled with information about how to lose weight. But the tool I think I've always been missing is "motivation."

Right now, I feel the motivation. It's there rearing to go. Its saying all those times before don't matter. We're going to make it this time. We just have to stick to the plan. Oh the plan... The plan that always gets thrown off by some little thing. But we're going to try, me and my motivation. We're going to bust through the road blocks put before us and create new paths where there was none before. I have to take control of my life. It's important. It's time to stop complaining and start being exuberant about the life I lead. I'm such a lucky person. I've got so many things going for me, I can't waste that luck. That tool is here to help me. Any motivating quotes or things of that nature would be a huge help to me. I really appreciate your support.

Love,
KB

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The Eighth of Onward

Today is my half birthday. I had this big plan to re-launch this blog earlier today, but it didn't happen. Oh well.

My life hasn't been my life for a while now. I've been letting things just kind of happen to me. Being 6 months away from 30 years old makes you realize some things. I'm not having some crisis about turning 30. I know that I've accomplished a lot in my short life, but I know there are more "regular" things that I should have accomplished, but haven't.

So, it's time. It's time to make a pledge to myself, and to you readers out there, (if there are any) to take charge of my life. I need to be able to take care of myself, financially, physically, emotionally. I've been skating by, but I know I could be doing so much better. If you want to read my detailed pledge list click here.

One of my main goals is to get healthy and lose this weight that is holding me down in so many ways. I know I've said this before, I don't know how many times, but I'm really going for it this time. Already this week I did yoga, and walked 2 miles on my treadmill, which I know for some isn't very much, but for me (who is pretty sedentary) a big deal. I'm hoping to be 88 pounds lighter a year from today. I weighed myself this morning at 278 pounds (how did that happen???). By next December 8th, I will weight 198 pounds. Any thoughts or ideas on how to get me there would be greatly appreciated. I joined the new Planet Fitness location (hasn't opened yet.) I'm going to get some new tennis shoes for Christmas. Pictures will be coming tomorrow to let myself see the progress I've been making. I'm hoping that perhaps some of you will make a pledge of clothing for me for December. 88 pounds is quite a few dress sizes, and it would be great to have something to put on. It would really be a great source of encouragement to me. If you'd like to pledge clothing click here. I also want to see how this can give back to the community, so I'm looking into ways to do that.

Thank you to those of you who have loved, supported, listened, pushed and cared about me all these years. You have no idea how much I appreciate everything you have done for me.

Much love,
Kristin