Hold me closer...

I'd really love it if Zach Galifinakis would interpret my blog. Then it would be hilarious. This was my first introduction to Zach. Way before the Hangover movies. Such a funny dude.

I've choreographed tons of songs in my head. This song being one of them. I used to dance a lot when I was a kid.  I was in Junior Jazzercise. We'd perform at the mall, and at parks, and at Cliff's before they turned that stage into the entrance for The Rattler. I loved it. I think it's where my love of performing really came from.

Sometime around mid-school, because that's when all kids start to lose themselves sadly, I stopped taking classes. My sister still took classes, but for some reason I just wasn't interested any more.

In college, I took quite a few dance classes. Modern Dance, Movement Improvisation, Dances for Theatrical Use... like from different cultures or something, Laban Movement Analysis, Tap, and Intro to Dance. I really did take Intro to Dance in like the second or third year of taking dance classes. I fulfilled a requirement of some sort. I think in the end I was about 2 or 3 classes away from having dance as a minor. We were required as theatre students to audition for the dance shows every semester. I would always put on the back of my audition form, "please do not cast."

I regret this a bit now. I look back and think that it probably would have been a lot of fun to be in a dance show. But I think more than anything I was scared of being the "big girl" in the dance show. There was a time when I had heard the dance instructor at the time yell at a girl, who as pretty fit, to "suck in her gut" during a really beautiful modern piece. I so didn't want anyone yelling that at me.

I'd like to start dancing again. I'm still scared of being the "big girl" but it's some of the only exercise I actually enjoy doing. There's emotional connection there, connecting the body with the brain. I just found out that on Mondays and Wednesdays at noon at eVolv they have Zumba now! I'm going to see if I can add that on to my schedule for those days. I think it would be good to move again.

And perhaps some day you'll see my choreography for this song. I'm not promising it will be good or anything, but it certainly rocks in my head.

All the love,
Kristin

Depth Perception

Anybody who wears glasses knows that when you first try on or wear them for the first time in a long time, your depth perception is shot for at least a couple of minutes. Things seem way taller or shorter than they actually are. Trying to do a step workout while wearing glasses is difficult.

My eye infection is better,  yay! So tomorrow I get to go to my regular optometrist and get my annual check up, which according to their records I haven't done since 2007. I don't know if that's true, but it seems likely. And then it will be back to contact lenses for me! But I vow to take better care of my eyes and wear my glasses more often to get some oxygen to my eyeballs.

Also, tomorrow in the morning I'll be getting a look at my headshots that Frank Frost took. I'm super excited to see them as it is the next step into getting all of my ducks in a row to be represented by Applause Talent Agency. Should be awesome.

Wilton and I are talking about my schedule, how to make it work so perhaps I'll get some more sleep. I'm putting stress on my body by not getting enough sleep. So you may see some changes to my routine in the next few days. Shall be good. Time to shake things up a bit.

Well, I'm falling asleep on the couch with the fingers poised on the keys, so I'm going to take that has a cue to hit the hay.

All the love,
Kristin

Feeling Thirteen

Wearing glasses make my eyes hurt. They have to work so much harder to see things than they do when they wear contact lenses... and that makes them sleepy.
Doing hot yoga while wearing glasses, especially when you aren't used to wearing glasses is difficult.
Feeling insecure and nerdy, and like you are thirteen all over again is not the best feeling. But it's a great reminder about how much I've grown since then and also the things that haven't changed for me in my life since then.
It's one of those things where you wonder, why haven't I changed those things? Surely I have found strength to change?

This was how my blog was starting out tonight... Then I saw this video. I have it easy compared to this guy. If he can do it, so can I!

 Also, check out this preview:
 

These journeys are hard, but what counts is that we get back up again when we fall.

Be inspired. Change those old habits, push towards what you want and be the awesome you that is in there just yelling to be told yes.

All the love,
Kristin

Drops

I really gotta get my act together. I got some really great advice from friends on facebook about becoming a morning person. And then lo and behold, Real Simple makes a post this afternoon about the very thing. What are the odds? You can read about becoming a morning person HERE.

I got an eye infection. Went to the doctor's today. They said it was probably from wearing my contact lenses for too long. I do this... put things that are important, like going to the eye doctor, off for a long time because "I'm too busy." And now my poor left eye is sick. I have to put these drops in my eye 3 times a day for the next 5 days. Hopefully it will clear up easily and quickly. In the mean time I have to wear my glasses. The last time I wore my glasses on a regular basis was when I was about 13. So, whenever I wear my glasses now, I feel 13 again.

Anyway, hopefully I'll get back into the swing of things, back into a routine and get back on the ball.

All the love,
Kristin

Wakey Wakey, Eggs and Bac-y!

I am NOT a morning person.

I know this theme has been explored before, but it is being explored again because I can't seem to break this routine in my life.

As a kid I would stay up all night reading. I would pretend to be asleep when my mom got up in the middle of the night to check on me. Apparently I sucked at fake sleeping, cause more times than not she would catch me in my silly lie. And of course it was hard to get up in the morning.

High school was no different. Up late doing homework after rehearsal got out... also, so I could watch Late Night with Conan O'Brien. He's the best. So funny. Stupid Jay Leno. Anyway... also hard to get up in the morning.

In college I was SO VERY EXCITED to get to choose my own schedule. I picked classes that started at 10:00 am so I wouldn't have to get up early in the morning. But even then there were times that I would sleep through my alarm and not make it in to my late morning class because I'd been up all night studying, watching TV, hanging out at the computer lab (later, working at the computer lab which closed at 3:00 am), and thinking up the next best creative ideas with my very amazing college friends.

Now, I'm a grown up... about to be 31 and I'm still having trouble getting in to a routine where I get up before 8:00 am so I can start the day. I've just never been a morning person. About 1:00 in the afternoon I start getting into my groove. I start having some energy, and by the time most everybody else is sleeping, my creative juices are flowing with ideas. The trouble with this... no one is awake to hear them. And sometimes, because the idea occurred at 2:00 in the morning, it maybe wasn't the best idea.

I have tried many things. Setting multiple alarms. Setting alarms on opposite sides of the room. Changing the tone of the alarm. Going to bed early. Drinking tea. Mornings just aren't for me.

Unfortunately for me, mornings are for just about everybody else. And since I like to be around people and get things done I've got to figure out how to be out and about in the morning. Any advice from any of my fellow non-morning people?

I guess I should also hit the hay, so I can make it to the gym in the morning.

All the love,
Kristin

Celebration of Women

For the last three days I've been celebrating the women in my family.

Friday, my Grandmother's Birthday. My Grandma is amazing. So supportive and always very interested in everything her grandkids are doing. And she's an amazing cook too boot.

Saturday, my Sister's Graduation. My sister is one of he most genuine and outgoing people I know. She is always there for her friends and family and most importantly to me, she's always there for me. She is getting her Bachelor's degree in Family Studies and hopes to be a Family Counselor one day. I know she's going to be great at that. I'm so super proud of her. She's so great and deserves all the wonderfullness that is coming to her.

Sunday, Mother's Day. My mom... what can I say? She has stuck by me through some pretty turbulent times in my life, including this crazy current journey. She supports me even when I might be making a super risky decision. I couldn't have asked for a better cheerleader.

To all of these amazing women in my life, I love you. Thank you for being such an integral part of my life and supporting me through all of my ups and downs. Congratulations on your many triumphs! It was wonderful celebrating with you all this weekend.

All the love,
Kristin

The Catch-Up

A dear friend came into town today. I haven't seen Shannon in a few years and we are those very busy individuals who rarely get the chance to talk or email. So when she let me know she was flying in and wanted to grab dinner before driving to Farmington to visit her parents for the rest of the week I was super duper excited that I don't have rehearsal for Mulan Jr. yet.

Time with a friend that you haven't seen in a long time is never long enough. Always just enough time to catch up, reminisce about the past, and the share just a little bit about the future. But it's always great to do just that. Getting to see Shannon was great. A bright spot in a a time that is hard and trying and it's nice to have a person around who's known you for a long time and believes in you. She's still the best roommate I've ever had.

Today at the gym, we had some PAINE. And what a PACKED class is was today. If that's not encouragement to get up early to make it to the gym before ALL THE SPOTS AND EQUIPMENT are taken, I don't know what is. It's also so exciting to be at the ground floor of something so electric and amazing as eVolv. Truly special getting to meet everyone that I am.

Also in personal training with Rachel I learned how to do a Turkish Get Up and a Windmill with a kettlebell.

Good day.

All the love,
Kristin

Black and Blue

For starters, if you run into me this week, the bruises on my neck are neither hickeys or vampire bites. They are bruises from the biopsy I had on my thyroid nodules on Friday. I'll hopefully find out tomorrow any news on the status of the nodules.

I'm looking for work again. If you want any particulars, you'll have to email me. In the mean time I'm looking forward to catching up with things at The Box, making plans for the future and discovering some new projects.

Crazy personal training with Wilton on Friday. Running (or what I would call running) was done. Could barely walk the next couple of days. Then right on cue with the biopsy, I started feeling sick. Saturday I was sore all over. Sore throat, legs, arms, everything. I know it's going to all be worth it in the end, but this last weekend was tough.

Did get to see The Avengers and our production of You're a Good Man, Charlie Brown sold out all of it's performances. This cast was super talented and I'm very proud of Easton, who directed the show. He's one of our company members who has grown into a remarkable young man.

PAINE in the morning. Time for some sleep.

All the love,
Kristin

Under?

You know you've lost some weight when your underwear is feeling too big.

Unfortunately you really shouldn't shop at thrift stores for underwear. Looks like it's time to go shopping...

All the love,
Kristin

Bed Battles

Insomnia is a common theme in my life. You will most likely read about it many more times in the course of this blog.

Lately my insomnia has been keeping me up until 3:00-4:00 in the morning. Last night though, I was exhausted. I finished my blog watched that last episode of How I Met Your Mother and headed to bed.

Only to wake up 2-3 times in the middle of the night either extremely thirsty or needing to visit the restroom. Normally I'm a sleep through the night kind of girl, once I can get to bed, but not last night.

When I woke up in the morning to get ready for the gym I fell asleep putting my shoes on. That was the sign that I needed to crawl back into bed.

Lately, I've been feeling like my mojo is off. My daily rhythm is out of whack. My body isn't doing the things that I'm telling it to do.

I'm pretty sure it's just a phase and I'll get back on track soon. Hopefully I'll sleep through the night and be bright eyed and bushytailed for Body Combat in the morning.

Good night world! Sleep sweet. I'll try to too.

All the love,
Kristin