Dear in the Headlights

Dear Readers,

I've been really busy working on stuff for the theatre. Good things in the works.

Still been going to yoga. Still loving it.

Lots more to do.

Also, sleep.

All the love,
Kristin

Numbers

Preliminary budget meetings are difficult.

Don't let anyone tell you different.

What I do like about it is the planning for the future part. That's pretty awesome.

All the love,
Kristin

Review

Nothing like paging through over 100 blog posts to find one sentence that you wrote earlier in the year to remind you of your journey so far. I've come a long way. I know I still have a long way to go, but I do feel stronger both mentally and physically.

Yes, I've been injured and gotten sick a lot this year. I've missed a lot of classes. I've had lots of trouble sleeping. I've had trouble following my meal plan. I've enjoyed a lot of classes. I've enjoyed meeting new people. I've accomplished things that I never thought I'd be able to accomplish in my life.

I've really been enjoying my yoga classes for the last few weeks. I know I've mentioned this before. I'm really getting into the affirmations of each pose and the talking about chakras. I've started looking into chakra healing and what not. It's really interesting to me. An online test said that 5 out of 7 of my chakras were weak or closed. And strangely enough, where those chakras are located, is where I carry most of my weight. I've started really looking into Law of Attraction studies and The Secret. I think there is a lot emotionally I don't actually deal with in my life. I hold stuff in because for a lot of my life, I've been the positive one, the sunshine girl, the peacemaker, and the girl who has a great smile and gives the best hugs.

No one wants a hug from someone who is angry or sad or depressed. And boy, do I love giving and getting hugs.

The Law of Attraction stuff says that if you haven't forgiven someone for a pain or a hurt that they've caused you, that is where your deficits lie. Your weight gain or lack of money or unhappiness is directly related to the fact that you haven't let a bad thing go. You don't have to say it was a good thing, but you have accept what happened as a part of your life. That it made you who you are today. And that who you are today is amazing and deserving of good things.

For me, this is the hardest hurdle. To know that I deserve good things... and not only do I deserve them, but I deserve them before giving good things to anybody else. While making other people happy makes me happy, I forget to take care of myself while I'm taking care of them. And with that am I really doing them any favors?

Anyway, this are the current thoughts. I'm in a good place. I think the yoga (although it can be REALLY hard) is putting me in a happy place, and looking into the spirituality of it really has my brain thinking about things.

We're at 42 pounds gone folks. 12 weeks to go.

All the love,
Kristin

Just Another Day

Good Yoga

Good Meetings

Good Rehearsal

Now for some good sleep.

All the love,
Kristin

More Adventuring

The movie that I was cast in back in August was finally filming this past weekend. I've been super excited about it, but since it's been such a long wait, I had kind of forgotten about it, but then I got my call sheet (it's what they send you to tell you when to come to set) Friday night and it was suddenly all very real.

I got up early Saturday morning, got dressed, and drove up the JW Eaves Ranch just outside of Santa Fe. It's were they filmed Blazing Saddles. It's an old west town set with a saloon and a jail. All that good stuff. Met a couple of the other actors on the film and then was sent over to wardrobe to try on costumes. They decided that this big blue dress, which was pretty impossible to walk around a dusty set in, was Mrs. Whitmore's style. Then I went over to hair and make-up and got a Mary Todd Lincoln style 'do.

Finally got to go on set to do my scene. They got my wide shot and my close-ups in two takes. That made me happy that they didn't feel like they needed to shoot it a bunch of times. They also wanted me to be at the hanging (of the character that I accused of murder) but they didn't get to it on Saturday, so I got to go back on Sunday. It was a lot of fun being on set with a bunch of actors walking around in period costumes on this old west set. I definitely enjoyed my experience and I'm looking forward to more chances of being an actor.

What is funny to me about this style of dress is that the women wore corsets to make their waists slimmer, but then they put on a bunch of petticoats under their skirts to make them more full, and in essence make their waists bigger again. I swear, there is an additional 2-4 inches of fabric between me and that dress. Crazy.

Also, I had to wear heels for 2 days. I tried to sit as much as possible, but it wasn't always an option in the 2 days I was on set. So my feet hurt, but I'm hoping that they will mend quickly. I've been doing some epson salt foot baths at night after stretching my feet out.

After many months of holding steady at 35 pounds (which I'm happy I didn't gain any weight back over those months!) I can now say that I've lost a grand total of 40 pounds! Yay! Now I know I'm not going to make my weight goal by the end of this year, but I think I've still accomplished a lot.

I'm also really enjoying my yoga classes. I've also started looking into chakras, and how to get things in alignment. It's all really interesting to me. Who knows? Maybe someday I'll be a yoga instructor? :)

Anyway, it was a good weekend. Hope yours was good too.

All the love,

Kristin

Bullies Beware

This woman is awesome. Just remember that you don't know anyone's situation or their habits or their health problems just by looking at them.

Also, it's so important to stand up for yourself and those that you love.

All the love,
Kristin

When you speak too soon

My left foot is hurting again! What the heck?! It comes and goes, but when it comes it's sharp stinging pain. Ugh.

In other news, yoga was great today and taught by new yoga teacher, Tiana. And she even said she thinks I've improved since I started back in January. Yay!

Well, sleep time.

All the love,
Kristin

Feet Are Made for Walking

My feet are finally starting to feel better. I'm not in so much pain in the morning any more, so hopefully by the end of this week with some more yoga I'll be feeling better.

Off to sleep so I'm ready to attack this week.

All the love,
Kristin