Resolve Again

Well, here we are at the changing of another year. I could recount my victories, mini and otherwise, but you can read the archives for that.

I could go over all the things that I want to achieve in the next year, but I think those things should stay private for now.

What I will say is that I am proud of what I accomplished this year. It was a tough year, and I know that 2013 will throw more and some of the same obstacles in my way, but I feel better about overcoming those things this time around.

Being lost in this great big world is scary and exciting. Growth comes from being lost and finding/creating parts of yourself along the way. I rediscovered parts of my soul this year, and opened up new ones which I greatly value.

My greatest wish is for all of us to discover something this year that makes us truly and abundantly happy and joyful.

All the love and Happy New Year,
Kristin

Short

Thinking about cutting all my hair off and donating to locks of love. Don't know if I could pull off a short look. Something kind of pixie/faux hawky?
I think it would make yoga even more awesome for me. My hair sheds a lot and it's super gross in a hot class. Sweaty and covered with hair is not a great combination.
Thoughts?
Also any thoughts out there on my last post?
All the love,
Kristin

Fear and Reflection: a Vlog

Charlie's video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=_56nx3eHK4c&feature=share&list=UUmQXOAse-VnzuXHebX5I77g

John's/Hank's video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=fGmAekTPD5c&feature=share&list=UUGaVdbSav8xWuFWTadK6loA

I know I owe you all a month of blogs. I'm sorry I've been slacking. Thoughts still pondering, but I will post soon.

All the love,
Kristin

Dear in the Headlights

Dear Readers,

I've been really busy working on stuff for the theatre. Good things in the works.

Still been going to yoga. Still loving it.

Lots more to do.

Also, sleep.

All the love,
Kristin

Numbers

Preliminary budget meetings are difficult.

Don't let anyone tell you different.

What I do like about it is the planning for the future part. That's pretty awesome.

All the love,
Kristin

Review

Nothing like paging through over 100 blog posts to find one sentence that you wrote earlier in the year to remind you of your journey so far. I've come a long way. I know I still have a long way to go, but I do feel stronger both mentally and physically.

Yes, I've been injured and gotten sick a lot this year. I've missed a lot of classes. I've had lots of trouble sleeping. I've had trouble following my meal plan. I've enjoyed a lot of classes. I've enjoyed meeting new people. I've accomplished things that I never thought I'd be able to accomplish in my life.

I've really been enjoying my yoga classes for the last few weeks. I know I've mentioned this before. I'm really getting into the affirmations of each pose and the talking about chakras. I've started looking into chakra healing and what not. It's really interesting to me. An online test said that 5 out of 7 of my chakras were weak or closed. And strangely enough, where those chakras are located, is where I carry most of my weight. I've started really looking into Law of Attraction studies and The Secret. I think there is a lot emotionally I don't actually deal with in my life. I hold stuff in because for a lot of my life, I've been the positive one, the sunshine girl, the peacemaker, and the girl who has a great smile and gives the best hugs.

No one wants a hug from someone who is angry or sad or depressed. And boy, do I love giving and getting hugs.

The Law of Attraction stuff says that if you haven't forgiven someone for a pain or a hurt that they've caused you, that is where your deficits lie. Your weight gain or lack of money or unhappiness is directly related to the fact that you haven't let a bad thing go. You don't have to say it was a good thing, but you have accept what happened as a part of your life. That it made you who you are today. And that who you are today is amazing and deserving of good things.

For me, this is the hardest hurdle. To know that I deserve good things... and not only do I deserve them, but I deserve them before giving good things to anybody else. While making other people happy makes me happy, I forget to take care of myself while I'm taking care of them. And with that am I really doing them any favors?

Anyway, this are the current thoughts. I'm in a good place. I think the yoga (although it can be REALLY hard) is putting me in a happy place, and looking into the spirituality of it really has my brain thinking about things.

We're at 42 pounds gone folks. 12 weeks to go.

All the love,
Kristin

Just Another Day

Good Yoga

Good Meetings

Good Rehearsal

Now for some good sleep.

All the love,
Kristin

More Adventuring

The movie that I was cast in back in August was finally filming this past weekend. I've been super excited about it, but since it's been such a long wait, I had kind of forgotten about it, but then I got my call sheet (it's what they send you to tell you when to come to set) Friday night and it was suddenly all very real.

I got up early Saturday morning, got dressed, and drove up the JW Eaves Ranch just outside of Santa Fe. It's were they filmed Blazing Saddles. It's an old west town set with a saloon and a jail. All that good stuff. Met a couple of the other actors on the film and then was sent over to wardrobe to try on costumes. They decided that this big blue dress, which was pretty impossible to walk around a dusty set in, was Mrs. Whitmore's style. Then I went over to hair and make-up and got a Mary Todd Lincoln style 'do.

Finally got to go on set to do my scene. They got my wide shot and my close-ups in two takes. That made me happy that they didn't feel like they needed to shoot it a bunch of times. They also wanted me to be at the hanging (of the character that I accused of murder) but they didn't get to it on Saturday, so I got to go back on Sunday. It was a lot of fun being on set with a bunch of actors walking around in period costumes on this old west set. I definitely enjoyed my experience and I'm looking forward to more chances of being an actor.

What is funny to me about this style of dress is that the women wore corsets to make their waists slimmer, but then they put on a bunch of petticoats under their skirts to make them more full, and in essence make their waists bigger again. I swear, there is an additional 2-4 inches of fabric between me and that dress. Crazy.

Also, I had to wear heels for 2 days. I tried to sit as much as possible, but it wasn't always an option in the 2 days I was on set. So my feet hurt, but I'm hoping that they will mend quickly. I've been doing some epson salt foot baths at night after stretching my feet out.

After many months of holding steady at 35 pounds (which I'm happy I didn't gain any weight back over those months!) I can now say that I've lost a grand total of 40 pounds! Yay! Now I know I'm not going to make my weight goal by the end of this year, but I think I've still accomplished a lot.

I'm also really enjoying my yoga classes. I've also started looking into chakras, and how to get things in alignment. It's all really interesting to me. Who knows? Maybe someday I'll be a yoga instructor? :)

Anyway, it was a good weekend. Hope yours was good too.

All the love,

Kristin

Bullies Beware

This woman is awesome. Just remember that you don't know anyone's situation or their habits or their health problems just by looking at them.

Also, it's so important to stand up for yourself and those that you love.

All the love,
Kristin

When you speak too soon

My left foot is hurting again! What the heck?! It comes and goes, but when it comes it's sharp stinging pain. Ugh.

In other news, yoga was great today and taught by new yoga teacher, Tiana. And she even said she thinks I've improved since I started back in January. Yay!

Well, sleep time.

All the love,
Kristin

Feet Are Made for Walking

My feet are finally starting to feel better. I'm not in so much pain in the morning any more, so hopefully by the end of this week with some more yoga I'll be feeling better.

Off to sleep so I'm ready to attack this week.

All the love,
Kristin

Sweet

It's a good feeling to leave a workout covered in sweat, knowing that you did your best in class. Sufficed to say that Hot Yoga is going well. I've been feeling great after each class and not at all defeated like I sometimes do after a cardio class.

The affirmations are nice. Knowing what each position is doing to help my body is nice. I'd have to say I'm pretty "in like" with yoga.

Here's to the start of a beautiful friendship.

All the love,
Kristin

When you feel icky

When you feel sick, and work out a lot, and are generally busy you have days where you just feel icky and gross. Then add your monthly visitor to the mix and then it's all downhill. Nothing is worse than feeling so icky.

Then you take a shower and clip your nails and put your hair up into something other than a ponytail and you start to feel human again, that it is okay to be seen in public.

Then you get a complement that you are looking good and you look like you've lost weight and then the day suddenly get significantly better.

All the love,
Kristin

The Update

On Friday I went to urgent care and waited about 2 hours to been seen by a doctor. He sent me for X-rays for my feet. Definitely have Plantar Fasciitis, and a Heel Spur. The doctor seems to think that since it's been hurting for 2 weeks it should take 2 weeks to start feeling better and gave me a list of some stretches.

Been taking yoga for the last 2 days and I think my feet are actually starting to feel better.

My congestion is clearing up too.

If things keep going this way I should be back to normal by the end of next week!

Here's to hoping!

All the love,
Kristin

Going to the Doctor

I'm going to the doctor tomorrow morning. My ears are feeling a lot of pressure and my feet are still hurting. It's time. Thinking it's a sinus infection and hoping for some amoxicillan.

Here's to getting better!

All the love,
Kristin

Sick, But Standing

My congested nose has now turned into an awful cough, so I know I'm in the homestretch of whatever this is! Yay!

I tried Trinity Hot Yoga this afternoon with Jen and it was awesome. My only complaint is that it wasn't longer! After taking 75 and 90 minute yoga classes in that hot room, 60 minutes seems like nothing.

My feet are still hurting, but I think doing the reclining hero position broke up some stuff. Might do it for a little longer tonight before going to bed. I'm no where close to getting even this far down, but someday!

And we're on to the next show at The Box. Had auditions tonight for Cardboard Playhouse Theatre Company's Vampire Hamburger. It's going to be a really fun show.

That's all in my world. See you tomorrow!

All the love,
Kristin

Sick of Being Sick

Plantar Fasciitis is still wreaking havoc with my feet. And of course right on schedule with a big show closing I have come down with a nasty cold. Ugh. Not being able to breathe or have pressure on my feet for long periods of time is not the best way to keep in this game.

I'm trying to do my best to take care of myself, drink plenty of liquids, vitamins, get lots of sleep. I'm starting to feel better, and hopefully by Wednesday I'll be able to go back to the gym.

Still looking for a part time job. I did a phone interview with the Verizon call center, but they are so crazy strict about their scheduling (which I totally understand in that line of work) it would just never work out for running the theatre. Guess I just need to keep looking.

How have you all been?

All the love,
Kristin

Asleep at My Post

I fell asleep sitting on the couch last night, computer in lap. Totally didn't make it to writing a blog last night. I must have been REALLY tired.

My feet are still hurting, so CJ suggested I go to yoga this morning. I think for the most part it helped, but while I was in Warrior II I felt some major pain in my left foot, so I came out of the pose and drank some water. All in all it was a successful class. I'm glad I went.

It's hard to stay off your feet when there is so much going on. We are having to move the theatre's MASSIVE costume collection out of our current storage into a new place. That was most of last weekend and some of this week. We still have some more to do, but we are nearing the end of it all. My advice for if you ever start a theatre, get a gigantic warehouse before you start so you've got a place to keep the gazillions of things people donate and you collect over the years. I swear, there are costumes that I don't think I've ever seen on a kid, but I'm sure they'll be used at some point.

It's the LAST WEEKEND of Little Shop of Horrors. I hope that you'll come out and see it. I also think it's probably going to sell out all performances, so if you are planning on coming get tickets ASAP or come really early to the Box Office to ensure your seats.

It's time to put my feet up for the evening. Hope you all are doing great.

All the love,
Kristin

I Need a Job & New Feet

My feet are still in pain. Wilton has told me to ride the bike at my apartment tomorrow and stay off my feet as much as possible.

I'm also looking for a part time job. Anybody hiring? Here's my resume.

Send me an email at kristin.k.berg@gmail.com if you have any openings you think I might be good for.

Best wishes in all of your endeavors!

All the love,
Kristin