I wish...

I could sleep! Where is the switch to turn off my brain?!

The Wall

First of all, I'd like to say that I'm writing this blog from the comfort of my own home. I finally have internet!

This morning was bad. I wanted nothing to do with getting up and going to the gym. I knew that when I got there I would feel better, but my bed seemed like a much better place to be. But I got up and went to PAINE anyway. I remembered that I want to do this for the loved ones in my life. My workout was for them today. Just so exhausted... I pushed through.

There are so many changes happening in my life. Some of it has led to the end of they way I've done things in the past. Those little deaths are difficult, but I know they are necessary. CJ and Wilton were able to talk me down from my mini breakdown today

But there are still a lot of things that I think about and have trouble turning my brain off at night. Like now.

The bonus is now with internet at home I can take care of some of those things I think about. Stuff for the theatre, personal ideas I have, blogs that need to be written. Plus I can do laundry at my apartment now. Double bonus. I feel like I'm making better use of this awake time.

But it is time to sleep. Tomorrow is another day. I will continue to break down this wall I'm up against.

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Flipping Tired

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Today's blog title plays for double entendre! 1. I flipped a really big tire on Tuesday 10 times. It was pretty awesome. 2. I'm am soooooo flipping tired. This week was seriously so exhausting.

Monday's Shock class was a really hard one and I'm still sore. Tuesday's PAINE was hard too, but I jumped a little bit further for burpees, so that was good. Then I had personal training time with Rachel where I flipped a tire 10 times and held the "dead bug" for a full minute. Go CORE! Wednesday's Body Combat was awesome as usual and my time with CJ was nice too. Got to share my stresses and he understands all the stuff I have on my plate. Today I got to go to hot yoga with Katie. It was a good class. Sweated some stuff out. Tomorrow some real personal training time with Wilton. I'm looking forward to it, but I'm a little scared of the stuff he might make me do.

At my day job we are gearing up for some of our really big conferences so their are lots of deadlines happening all over the place. I need to be able to priorities better there. It is hard though when I'm only there 20 hours a week.

At the theatre this week we had rehearsals for our two new improv teams "A Moment in Time: Musical Improv," and "The Q: An Improvised Soap Opera." Both are going to be great shows and have performances in April. We also had some rehearsals for Alice in Wonderland Jr. It's going to be a terrifically funny show at The South Broadway Cultural Center March 30, 31, and 1. Find out more by visiting our website at www.theboxabq.com.

Been feeling stressed out lately that there is never enough time and things just keep feeling like they're not getting done. I know there is so much to do. My to do list is super long, but I feel like we are almost to a point where we can give direct instructions to people that want to help us.

On a great note though I had a really lovely coffee date with some wonderful women in my life on Sunday. Melanie, Heather, Hilary, Libby, Jennae and I all attended ENMU in the early 2000s and are now getting back together again to discuss working together creatively. It might be a play, it might be a web series, it might just be talk, but what ever it is it's so nice to talk creation with people who speak the same language as me, who have the same background that I do. I will keep you updated as this moves forward. We are going to have coffee again on the 25th and I'm thinking it will be awesome.

That's all for tonight.

All the love,
Kristin

Girl Talk

All of the ladies of Tricklock Company are AMAZING. Super talented and very nice. In particular Erin, Juli and Dodie who let me complain and then give advice and great big encouragement and hugs. Thank you for the lovely talk tonight. I really appreciate it! Time to think about making a show? :)

All the love,
Kristin

Sometimes a Dinner

Pretty good workout today even though I was late. Wilton has reworked my schedule for workouts. Adding Hardcore Ab workout to most of my workouts, another day of yoga, and a whole hour of personal training with Wilton! As long as I keep getting to go to Body Combat it's alllllll goooooood.

Lots of meetings at work today and didn't feel like I got a whole lot done, but I feel more prepared for all the conferences we've got coming up.

Board meeting with Cardboard Playhouse Theatre Company went well tonight. We added two new members to our board. And we are gearing up for one of our most awesome fundraisers, The Doug and Lillie Show, coming to you in April. You'll have to come check it out.

After that meeting I went to dinner with my new awesome friend Carissa Mitchell. We had a really nice talk and got to know each other better. Carissa is the new owner of Applause Talent Agency and she has agreed to be my agent! So exciting. I need to get her my headshot... can't find it anywhere. Boo. But I will get it into her hands soon and we will start on another journey.  Shake things up a bit.

I'll leave you with an awesome music video tonight. Love it.

All the love,
Kristin

Pushing Forward

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Things have been getting better. Got a grant from a great foundation for Cardboard Playhouse Theatre Company. According to the scale at eVolv I've lost a total of 25 pounds (if we go by Jenny's its 18 pounds... still a great loss for 2 months). Rehearsals for Alice in Wonderland Jr. are moving right along. But things are definitely not easier.

Scheduling has always been hard for me. I feel like I never have any time. I get up, go to the gym, drive fast back home to get ready for work, go to work, leave work and go to the theatre, rehearse rehearse rehearse, do work for the theatre, goof around on the internet for a little bit and head home to sleep only to do it all over again the next day. I feel bad the days that I don't make it in to the gym because I slept through my alarms because I was working on stuff at the theatre until 2:00 am. And stuff in the gym that I'm just getting the hang of is being moved up to the next notch. I know the need to do this is so I will keep working hard, but it stinks when you finally feel some sort of achievement in what your doing. 

But the reward is feeling/seeing the changes from everything. I feel a sense of moving forward instead of feeling stuck like I did before. I see progress. I have new pants to prove it. If I keep the same pace the scale will be telling me 220lbs ish by June. Might even be making some money working with Cardboard Playhouse by then too. That is an amazing thing.

I'm more stressed out than I've been in a long time, but I'm trying my best. I know there will be big decisions to be made in the future, but it all feels like its on the right path.

Oh, The Box Performance Space and Improv Theatre had it's 5th anniversary last week! It's been an amazing journey so far. What a ride. I want to thank my most amazing business partner and best friend Doug for being the light that has been guiding us. He's awesome and deserves many many rounds of applause for all the work he does. I appreciate him mucho.

Come see Alice in Wonderland Jr. at the end of this month, but also, check out our Kickstarter for the show too. It ends in three days. If you like our video, pledge a dollar or two. I'd really appreciate it.

All the love,

Kristin